Things I've Done Since We Ended

1. Stole a bike.
2. Wore heels out.
3. Kissed a few boys.
4. Tried eggnog.
5. Changed my mind about what I want to do.
6. Got back in touch with old friends.
7. Met new people.
8. Felt comfort in someone else's arms.
9. Pulled myself back together.


I kept telling myself my world had stopped, but it never did. I tried to slow it down, but things happen whether you are ready or not. I've changed and it's for the better. Sure my walls are back up. But I'm happy with who I am. I don't miss how I use to let people walk all over me.

From here on out. I'm being more clear from the beginning about what I want. I refuse to let myself stop feeling. I'm being more open and letting things out. Because when he texted me today, my whole face lit up. And when he told me he can't wait to watch a movie when we got back, I was filled with excitement. Because for now, he makes me smile. That's enough for me. He tells me when i'm being irrational or a brat. And he always had open arms when I entered his room, eyes swollen from crying over you. He has changed me already, in the best kind of way.