You don't deserve this. I never should have let you in. From the beginning you kept me at such a distance. You refused to ever let me in. I gave you everything I had. All you could give me was a comforting place. Which was great and I needed it. But I need someone who isn't afraid to tell me how they feel. Someone who challenges me to actually feel something. You always so easily put your emotions aside. And that use to be how I was, but I refuse to do that anymore.

You don't want me. And that honestly is the most pain I have ever felt. I'm not what your looking for. I'm not what you need. Nothing about me, makes you want to hold on.

I hope when you hear my name, it hurts like hell. And that when you speak it, it leaves a sour taste in your mouth. Because you need to know, that you crushed me. And I'll never be who I was with you. No one will ever experience me as you did. So be thankful. And while your at it, let yourself feel something, anything. Feel crushed, even if only for a moment. Because you can't tell me that what we had wasn't amazing. You can't convince me that what we had was typical.

I'm going to be okay. Fine is hiding behind a close corner...I hope.