I spend my days trying my best to tell myself that one day i'll stop loving you. That one day it won't all hurt so much and I can stop pretending. I'm so sick of everyone around me. They don't understand why I don't want to kiss some other guy goodnight. My body is falling apart on me. I literally can not breath without being in pain. Everyone is always saying they won't leave. I don't know why I trusted you when you said all those things to me. I don't know why I ever let my walls down for you. I'm sick of crying myself to sleep when I'm all alone. I've tried to meet other guys. I even went on a date. But he just isn't you. And when he kissed the top of my head, I didn't feel safe or cared for. I felt empty. I'm always feeling empty.