Please Stay For a While

I don't want to become her. I see her broken and taking care of him. But he won't let her in. He isn't in love with her. And if he is, he doesn't deserve her. No one deserves to be treated like an option. I refuse to wait around for someone to begin to fall for me. I'm not sure what to do about us. I can wait a little while longer, I'll continue to hang onto you. But you need to know my feelings are getting stronger everyday. I am terrified that you are going to crush me and leave me as the mess you first met. I struggle daily with insecurities and self doubt, as you tell me you're not ready. That better be the truth. Why would you put me back together just to break me apart again? All those nights in your arms have changed me. I've become sure of who I am, and no matter how much I try to deny it, I'm always caring too much. I can't be cold and hard like I use to be. Following my heart seems like my only option any more. I never use to be this way.

This isn't exactly what I wanted but it is making me happy and that is all that matters. Every night when I lay my head upon my pillow, I think of you. And i'm content with where we stand. I don't care about all the labels and that nonsense.

I guess I've just been happy.

I don't know how to say this. My heart just hurts. I am so sick of being let down. I'm over being hurt by everyone I come in contact with. Why can't anyone just be honest and say what they feel and what they want? Instead of spending their time, wasting mine.