This Carpets Got Hills

You're putting in an effort again. A real effort, with coffee delivery, and lunch dates. Once again I find sleep with my head rested safely on your chest. But then you had to go and tell me that I deserve someone better. And I shouldn't pass up a great guy because of you. At first I just agreed and kept on with my day. But suddenly, it has been playing over and over again in my head. You don't want to commit to me. Do you want me all to yourself?

You are so predictable. You love spending the days with me, cuddled up and watching a movie, but you are still waiting for her to come back. You still want her back, don't you? I never measure up to the girl from the past. I can't even ever say I am second best.

Maybe I am jumping too far ahead of myself. I am such a mess this week and so full of self doubt. He makes me so happy when were laying together, hand in hand. But I feel so alone at the end of every night.

Why can't i feel anything real anymore?

I'm a mess. I have been doing my best to smile and act like I don't care. But I still miss you. I know I shouldn't. I know you never cared about me. I'm so sick of being the girl that guys lead on and then they so easily leave behind. Stop making me believe that you care.

Sunrise Highway

You kissed me and everything felt right back in place. Your arms surrounding me felt like home and hours later are still keeping me warm. I know we should have just let this go. I don't see it going anywhere. But you are what keeps me waking up in the morning. I never wanted to admit that, but you have become one of the most prevalent people in my life.