Weakdays

I didn't sleep last night. I didn't find any comfort. Tonight will be another sleepless night. I know it's over. I finally felt it today. I can tell that you're moving on, you're letting go. I've never been so crushed. Moving on should be right around the corner, but I can't seem to find the right turn. How do I do this? How do I push all of our memories out of reach? Everyone was on eggshells around me today.

I just need to let this out. I wanted to spend forever with you. I've never even wanted to spend a year with anyone else. You're the only person who captivated me like that. The only person who made me feel like I could do anything. It was like you gave me these wings that I never knew I could have. And now they are gone, and I'm completely broken.

But I won't stay broken, I can't. I'm not this girl. In a few months, i'll be okay. I'll smile again. But I'll never put myself out there like that. My walls are higher than ever. My expectations don't even come off of the ground.