Wake me up when September ends.

I have been having my ups and downs. I miss my friends. But i have made some new ones that are a lot of fun. Nights at the townhouses have become regular and the people there are so welcoming. Some girls thought I wasn't a frosh because i was in our townhouse and I knew everyone. I think its going to start getting easier...or at least i hope so.

I have been thinking about someone from the past a lot. I have been wondering if on mybirthday he will even text me. I have been struggling with letting him go since June. It has not gone well at all. Every day he is in my thoughts and I hate sleeping because I dream about him all the time. I thought maybe being at college would make this all easier. I'm still hurting, and I don't want to anymore.

Last night i kissed this guy. Who is much older and is probably only looking for one thing. But it was just a kiss. Sometimes that's all I need to feel a little prettier. I just want to be someone that you can't forget.