I don't even know what to write. My head is a blur. I figure eventually it will all just clear up on it's own right? I'm feeling better about my decisions concerning you. It has nothing to do with how I feel. Because we all know the feelings haven't gone away. I could have fallen in love with you. Did you know that?...I was falling in love with you. But I know better. You are a great guy, but you're not a great guy for me right now.

We're still talking, and I have to admit its not easy. But I don't want us to be strangers. I felt comfortable with you and I let you in. I don't remember the last time I did that. So i'm going to tough it out and figure out a way for this to hurt less.

I met this guy who is sweet and simple. He says all the right things a girl wants to hear, but that isn't what gets me. Yet he called today and my face lit up. And my sister looked at me and goes "I haven't seen you smile like that in weeks." So maybe he isn't my typical choice. And we're not moving anywhere fast. We're taking things as slow as possible, there is no rush. But he has me smiling again, even when i'm crushed over you.

I never thought the one who put me back together would also be the one to rip me apart all over again...