Too Many Excuses

I am done waiting for you to care more. I know you have feelings for me, and you think that's enough. But I promised myself I wouldn't settle this year. And I am not going to settle with you. There are plenty of guys who would love to see me this summer, even if it involves a two and a half hour drive. But you came up with every excuse in the book as to why you can't make it. This proved everything to me. I need someone who needs me as well.

You're not over your ex. I understand that she broke your heart. I know what that is like. Don't you remember the mess I was when we started spending time together? But I have moved on, I'm happy again, yet you are still so broken. I'm not mad at you for that, but you have decided to hold on to her, and I'm not going to be your second choice.

Each time you text me, I panic. What are you going to say next? You think that this time is the same as all the others, but it is so different. I'm not crawling back into your arms. This weekend I'll find myself wrapped up in another guy's arms. He is sweet and caring. He calls me gorgeous and keeps his dirty thoughts to himself. He is nothing like you. Right now, that sounds so attractive.

You lost this. I'm not just seeing other people for the summer, I'm seeing other people. It is too late to fight to hold on. Stop forcing me to miss you. I'm not weak, I will just walk away. I told you that you were going to miss me, I bet you didn't believe it then.