Need You

Your out of reach. I'm trying my best to just be happy. I mean I am so lucky to have met you and fallen for you. But this is anything but easy. Recently it seems to pull me apart more then it holds me together. I know your worth all this. I can't imagine ever holding another's hands. When are the every other day phone calls going to make me feel better? With you so far away, I feel so alone. The nightmares that keep me up aren't going away. You hardly know about them, because you don't have the time. I'm too weak to tell you that I wake up crying and terrified that your going to leave just like everyone has done in the past. I'm still afraid to show you that I need you. Because I do, I need you every day, every minute.