You Put On Quite A Show

      For a while there you had me believing every word.  You had me hanging on them.  But then you said forever and always, just like you use to.  And I realised were never going to be remotely close to what we use to be.  I can finally say i'm completely over you and everything we use to be.  I have no regrets about us.  You were never good enough for me.  

      Then there is him...  The guy who has me smiling everyday from miles and miles away.  I know he is just going to leave but i'm going to make the best of the time I have with him. He cares, and I'm finally starting to believe that. And with every day I get more and more attached.  Every day I become closer to trusting him.

      I do miss you and I do care. I just think i'm hurt that you ever thought i didn't. A lot has been going on lately. And i can't say i can handle it all. None of that is really your fault.