"I meant everything i ever said to you"

I know you did. Well I hope you did. I'm out of things to say to you. Because you probably are making the best decision for right now. But I hate the idea of right and wrong decisions. I'm always the girl following my head instead of my heart and I changed for you. I let you in. As I go through my phone and read saved texts from you I try my best not to feel like a fool. "Dont worry babe. Even though i'm across the country, I didn't leave." But this time you did. I can't lean on you and share it all with you anymore. You need to understand that I'm on my own now. I know you care, but you need to learn how to stop me from seeing that. As much as i feel broken and down, part of me still believes in you. Part of me is dying to hear you say that you don't want anyone else and you don't care how hard this is. That your willing to say fuck the odds and invest yourself in something that is irrational. But you so easily push aside your feelings. Your always trying to do whats best.