A Week Can Change Your Life

I've felt more emotions in the past week than I have felt in years. I screamed and cried and fell apart. All because I'm so afraid of losing the person who has captivated me more than anyone else. The words he spoke last weekend shattered me and then glued me back together. I understand that us staying together is going to be a struggle. But I can't imagine putting my hand in anyone else's. You told me "I meant everything i ever said to you, and the only thing i regret is that I didn't get to meet you sooner." I don't think I'll ever be ever to forget that moment.I quiver thinking that we won't work out.

Saying goodbye, I tried my best to hold back the tears. But they came, and once they started they weren't stopping. You gave me your dogtag. And I have been gripping onto it ever since. It makes me feel a little closer to you. Like you are right there next to me, wearing it. I want you to know that your heart is safe with me, I would never do anything to hurt you.

I know that it is only going to get harder, and i'm still unsure how that is possible. I have loved every moment ever spent with you. And no one could have or will ever make me as happy as you do. Don't feel bad for me or say that this isn't fair to me. I'm not going anywhere. I could never leave those arms that are like my home.